The curser is blinking at me as it sits at the top of the page.
It calls out to my brain, “Do Something!” And I want to. I want my creativity to wake up and begin to live again. I long for the days when words and images poured out in a never ending stream. When I didn’t have enough time in the day nor was I quick enough to get them all on paper.
I long to wake up refreshed each morning and begin to see what flows from my spirit next. It’s been too silent for a while now. I sit at my desk and in my studio and wait….
I feel emptiness, longing, fatigue, and sadness. I feel powerless, anxious, and impotent. And I want to say, ENOUGH!
Enough with the anger, hatred, bigotry, misogyny, and violence. Enough with grandiose self important and twisted attacks on the innocent.
I’m supposed to “explore” this week… I would love to explore the world. I want to see Greece, the Caribbean, Italy, and Australia. I want to see the Grand Canyon and Mesa Verde. I want to explore the rich history of the Indigenous Tribes across our country, to learn about first foods and how to care for the environment.
My weary spirit needs to be fed. It needs to be purged of the sewage from the past 5 months to make room for light and hope. And I need sleep.
If you, too, are weary or anxious I hear you. I see you. I support you.
I will be lifting you up in prayer, sending positive thoughts and energy to you, and focusing on hope for all of us.
Last weekend proved that many other people share my beliefs, thoughts, and concerns for our country. We can gather strength and determination from the cries of fellow Americans across our nation refusing to bow down to a dictator.
We can continue to speak out and pass on the truth, call our representatives, and pray daily.
I plan to continue to force myself outside into the sunshine and get my hands dirty in the soil while I weed and mow and enhance beauty and support nature. That will free my spirit and perhaps heal my heart.
We can’t lose hope. We can’t give up the fight. We can’t allow evil to flourish.
I hear you I see you I support you.
Together we form an unbreakable bond that will carry us through to a better future. But if we give up, the strands unravel and we fall.
So I worked at writing today. I will continue to work at creating images. I will continue to seek the truth and share it.
I will continue to pray each morning for our leaders, for the safety of all those who live in these borders, and for love, empathy, and compassion, wisdom and discernment to flow freely.
I can do these things. What can you do?